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Nemesis
by Don aka don5_1999
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This character I created is a representation of my nemesis. This was a bit of a tricky jam, because I was wracking my brain trying to figure out just WHO my nemesis is. BNR? Undergroundmedia? That WTF guy? Armature1? Necrotechno? Dwayne? Nah, not really. Last year it would have been easier maybe, but I made a decision to try to put all that crap behind me, and forget the past ememies I've made. That doesn't mean that I don't still come across wankers who piss me off a bit, but I try not to let it chaff me too much.
"Everyone has one." This person, she's on the net, she's a writer/editor, and you people who know her will probably know who I'm talking about. Those who don't, well, it won't matter. So... I'd have to say... that this pic is a representation of someone, who I think qualifies pretty well as my nemesis. let me explain why:
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| We used to be friends - The best enemies are the ones who
start off as friends. She & I were in the same comic creating clubs,
and we used to talk quite a bit. She was really hungry for knowledge on
creating comics, which fed into my ego pretty well. She's a huge anime freak,
and as far as comic artists, her favourite is Ryoichi Ikegami (Crying Freeman,
Sanctuary, etc.) one of my favs too.
The falling out - Somewhere along the line, it has to happen, friends become bitter violent enemies. I'm not sure what it was that happened, I can't remember. I think it was when I pointed out that her "company" doesn't actually pay it's "staff". She's quite smart - From what I can gather, her day job is a trade that's requires a lot of training & skill. Though she does seem to have a LOT of time to goof off on the net. And she sucked me dry of my know-how re: comics, and like The Borg, moved on to others to assimilate more. All good nemesis have to be really smart, right? She doesn't like me - Even though we're on the World Wide Web, for awhile there it seemed like it was a case of this town ain't big enough for the 2 of us as she started joining a ton of comic creating clubs, and if I was a member/joined, and I posted a message, she'd immediately quit. I started to take it a bit personally, then I realised, "Hey, that's cool!" I'd be a member of a club and all I have to do is post and SHE'D go! I don't have to go nowhere! Personality clashes - WARNING: Biased comments that are the sole opinions of me are coming up.... She's got a company that she is constantly tooting it's horn for EVERY chance she gets, which while I can certainly understand the need for promotion, it got a bit tiresome to read it everywhere I went. She's a writer, but she seems to aspire to be more of an overseer who's more interested in titles and having people "work for her" rather than actually getting in and creating comics... for example: she has someone adapt her prose stories into comics format, then "hires" someone else to script it.... maybe it's ok for Marvel, but do we really need this kind of middle management attitude in comics at THIS level? The character is a representation of her in a ways, because she seemed to want to project that type of image, as in if she had to answer the question what kind of character would I be? she'd probably pick assassin. For awhile, she was posting slogans that went along the line of the only good man... is the one hanging from my sword, dripping blood that sort of thing. I suspect she would be quite happy with this picture as a representation of her, because she always seems to use slinky anime assassin types as her user pics.... I've never seen a picture of her in real life. Avoidance - A good nemesis is one that you don't see too often, thus hightening the impact of when we do cross paths. Imagine if Spider-Man and Doc Ock lived in apts. right across the hall from each other? They'd be getting into fights every time they went out to get the newspaper. I think that she & I have made an agreement to just try to stay out of each others' way. Plays into my weaknesses - Another sign of a good nemesis is one that can exploit your weaknesses. She's either using any excuse to talk about her comic/company, or she's playing the false modesty card. But the truth is, she hooked up with an artist who is, oh, about ten times better than me on my best day. And as stated, there's her smarts, and how quickly she learned things in the comics biz, and her ability to constantly network & be seemingly everywhere... I guess it all leads back into my massive bundle of insecurities. Plays into her weaknesses - Another sign of a good nemesis is one that you know THEIR weaknesses. She is REALLY defensive. You can tell that she could end up brooding big time over small things. She had or has a case of the too much time on the net, like how you can tell those people that spend WAAAAAAY too much time online, and get obsessed over every little message that comes their way, you know what I'm saying. I know it happens to me sometimes. but with her, it was like that on crack. Could be.... love? - All the best enemies situation, esp. if they're boy/girl, have a attraction/repulsion aspect to them. So all this adversarial feeling I have for her, could it really be..... love??? Hmmmmmmmmm. Could be!* *I'm just kidding. It is NOT. But I honestly can say that I do admire her, in a way. There are many things I admire about her. But like I said, I'm trying to put things in the past, and I feel like
I don't have real "enemies" anymore. From what I can tell, it
seems like she's mellowed too, posting buddhist sayings on her LJ &
all. I think she might have pushed past her rage & gone somewhere
deeper, better. But I don't know, we don't talk or anything. |